I've talked about Paul's kids quite a lot on this blog. I've posted pictures and told you about the things we do and the funny things the kids say. But I haven't talked much about the process of learning to be a stepmom.
I've been included in Paul's family for a little over a year now, and I think I can finally say I'm getting there. I've calmed down. I'm starting to put less pressure on myself. We've successfully passed the point of initial relationship building and now we're moving on to a rhythm of life together. In hindsight, I wish I would have documented it, because it has been one of the hardest things I have ever done.
Lauren is an amazing girl. She's smart, and a little flighty sometimes (she is a teenage girl, after all!). She's a talented budding artist and shows interest in a huge variety of subjects. She learns about the things that interest her and takes pride in having that bit of knowledge to share.
Lauren is her own person, and even at the impressionable age of 14 she doesn't let anyone take that away from her. She exhibits creativity through her clothing and loves to push the boundaries with her hair and makeup. Instead of spending all of her money at Hot Topic (though she does shop there), she loves to glean her accessories from antique stores and thrift shops. She's a kickback to the resourceful punk spirit of the 80s, and she is truly unique in a time when 'unique' has become uniform.
Lauren is mature for her age. She loves to help out, especially with the little kids. I've been hesitant to let her because I don't want her to feel like I'm taking advantage of her willingess, but I'm finally learning that it's ok to let her help me. She truly enjoys it, and she knows that if I ask her to help it's because I'm working, too. I hope she knows how much I appreciate her.
As we worked together, we talked or didn't. I felt my hesitation slip away and I enjoyed Lauren's company. I stopped worrying and just enjoyed her. She's funny and slightly sarcastic. She notices little details that completely escape me, and she has decided opinions on many things--just like her dad.
Pedicures. October 2 or 3. You in?